My father Stan and I in our default states.
lsof -ti:3000 | xargs kill -9 2>/dev/null; npm run devI’ve been wandering up to 60 for a while. During my extreme-extroversion around Give First: The Power of Mentorship I described myself as “almost 60” a bunch of times just to try it on.
It feels comfortable.
Several people responded with “60 is the new 40.” Nope. Not even close. I most definitely do not feel like I did when I was 40. On my annual birthday run this morning (at least 1 minute for each year), I just plodded along, even though I comfortably covered 65 minutes. I sleep more (good), I care less about a bunch of stuff (good), but my energy is lower and the fatigue is ever present (bad).
I’ve definitely shifted into a new mode over the past year. I’m still on a bunch of boards for Foundry and deeply involved in several companies. But I’m much less focused on the broader technology industry, uninterested in many of the things that are going on, and tired+bored of the arc the narrative about technology and society has taken.
In contrast, I’m much more interested in people I care about. Not big groups of them, but the one-to-one relationships. My real friends are wonderful. The deep relationships are what have meaning to me.
I recently told Amy that I enjoy all the CEOs I’m working with. While I’ve always been friends with many of them, this is the first time that I can recall feeling a genuine friendship with all of them. I know that something new will be fucked up in my world every day, so that has nothing to do with these relationships. Instead, how we deal with whatever new fucked up thing will happen means everything.
I’m writing a lot. Give First: The Power of Mentorship may be my last non-fiction book. I’ve shifted to fiction and software. I’m having a ton of fun with both, bringing a beginners mind to the mix, even though I have the right kind of muscles for each from my past experiences.
While I haven’t solved my post-exertional malaise issue, I’ve settled into an understanding of it and how it impacts me physiologically. I’m experimenting with a bunch of things, keeping the ones that work and punting on the ones that don’t. And yes, pilates is magnificent.
On to the next decade …